i thought we were grown up now

and you wonder why i hate you.
you question why i have nothing to say
when it just the two if us.
yet you've never once reflected and your detrimental choices.

ive hated you, since i've learned the meaning of the word.
since i discovered that what you've done can be hated.
ive hated you for fucking me up. for making me just like you.

you only make me want to hate you
as much as you hate him.
ill grow up to resent you
everything about you.

for not seeing the light of day
for not realizing that i could have been shit
for not changing
for not realizing that
i hate you for making me like you and
for not changing
for never growing up.

Crème fraîche

Last night I met up with my wonderful girlfriend H at the Echo, and as I drove past the man-made Echo Park Lake I became nostalgic; and memories of running loops around the lake on Saturday mornings filled my head. And its not that I miss Echo Park in particular, I miss living in a metropolitan area. I miss things being close.

Anyway this is not about that, this is about the pleasantries I stumbled upon at the Echo last night. H's friend Jeff/Jeof/Jeph??? is in the band Fol Chen and they performed last night with Karin Tatoyan. She was amazing. And amazing is an understatement. More like phenomenal. When listening to a new artist/band I ALWAYS start off pessimistic and cynical. (thats just me). Then I start to weed out things I dont like, and things that sound like its been done a million times over. At first I will admit, upon inital listen I thought, 'ok she sounds like bjork, big deal'. three songs later, i was madly in love. because although, i've never been the biggest fan of B-town i've always appreciated her talents. Thus, Karin is a force. She has a voices that carries you into a journey of her emotions, and her stage presence exemplifies the electric energy of her songs. Her band are VERY tight, and uber talented as well. They flowed harmoniously, and I felt myself taken-away.

Twas refreshing to stumble upon her last night. just when you think all 'new' music is shit (well, at least i think it is) you find that tiny diamond in the rough. Karin is definitely pushing the envelope, and may she get all the way through.

Chim chim cher-ee!
When you're with a sweep
You're in glad company